How much do you love someone?

I believe that all of us are loving someone or at least already loved one
Have you ever thought bout how much you spend to love someone?
As a digital marketer and I worship everything related to data and numbers. I always quantize whatever I do.
Unlike everything, I never plan for loving and quantizing anything about that. Today is 3th day of the year of the rat (2020 western calendar). I wonder how much I love her. I do not really quantize my love but here are some things that I want to share about my “How much”
First of all, to love someone, It definitely unable to measure, only one thing can measure is how they can feel our love. Sometimes, many things that we did they might not think those ones are important.
In my mind, I always think of her and always ask myself how about her. Is she good? Is she happy? How about her works?… When we were talking I used  to send her messages to ask those questions? Early morning or even very late at night? I am a healthy man I often sleep very early. However, If I did not know about her, I could not sleep until I knew she was good at home. During that time, I always did that except sometimes I felt It made her annoyed.
Because of a sensitive boy, since I had to decide to leave her. I have been crying every single day, It has been a long time and I suppose that will happen for much time in the future cuz I still love her so much.
In our love, miss our loved one is the foremost part. I already supposed that after leaving her, I would never message her again. Yeah, so badly, I think that each time I breathe is each time I miss her. Dozens of times right?. Fuckkkkk
I am so bad, I am not able to continuously write….

An unfinished story

Before reading this article, please spend few minutes to think about this question? What is the most regrettable plan in your life?
I have the plan, more accurately, It is an uncompleted story that had initiated by me for our (sadly or only my) love. Since she had said that we would never have any result, I felt so sad, It was really the most painful feeling. At a night we had a dating at a coffee shop, after failing when I said I loved her on the most attractive Island in Vietnam. I decided that I would go away her forever. Before doing that, I really wanted to do any meaningful things to her. I told her that “Please, give me a chance to be with you, only 99 days and then I will go away and never meet you again”. She did not say anything about that. I carried out that plan, every early morning, every very late at night, I used to send my best hope to her via messages. I totally wanted to take care of her, I always worried when she came to late at night or abandoning the breakfast. Yeah, until now, Whatever I have seen, I have known… I always think about her first or associating with her.
One day, when I came into Ca Chep Book store, I saw the book “500 Ngay Yeu – 500 loving days”, I thought that I would write a series of stories about “99-day loving”. In that plan, on the last day, I would say loving her at the most historical place in the most popular City in Vietnam. That place is combined between traditional and modern culture. It is one of the beautiful and romantic in Vietnam. I imagined that I would give flowers and said I loved her. Unfortunately, She was very annoyed about my plan, I felt that she was never happy with whatever I did… I do not know, when I am writing about that story and think about her feeling, I feel very painful in my heart (I swear, everything I write is true…), I feel very hard to breathe. Eventually, my plan only completed about half of the time, that night is also the last night I met her. And I never have another chance to say that I love her directly…Never..never…

I miss you, miss you so much….

— Ha Noi, a cold day—